The longest conference I've ever had, having spent 6 days of disengagement with the rest of the world and being stuck there with the same almost 500 people. It was certainly an amazing eyeopening experience. The best thing is that we are all one in the Body of Christ and it strangely felt like home.
God's working in the conference did something in me that helped me change my worldview on certain things. There was much to be learnt and some of which that lingered in my mind were;
That God assured me that I am His son~!
Worship is not merely an act of singing praises unto Him, its a lifestyle~!
There is a battle taking place in the spirit, therefore Pray~!
God uses even the insignificant people to do His purposes
Living selflessly, doing His will instead of our own
Learn to be spiritualy discipline by earnestly seeking Him
Selah - Don't keep walking, take a stop
Reflections - take time to recollect
Be Fruitful and Multiply
On the 2nd Night of the conference, God really had to deal with me. My partiality in spirit had to be smitten. I was selfish to live the way that I am. My ambitions were not glorifying to Him. I knew that for a long time but I've never really let go. I've always had this picture of a man standing one foot in the shadows and the other in the light. I've never budged from that position for quite a while now.
They say there comes a time when a man learns to die to himself and never again to live for his own. To take up the cross and to follow his Master, doing His will and not of our own. I knew I had to Die~! Die the Death of my selfishness and my humanistic desire to live. The time came when I asked Him to pin me to the wall, let me not move so that He may deal with me. I knew my flesh would struggle from giving up my life~! But I had to Die~!
Giving up my life to Him was never easy. Till today I still need His gracious workings to deal with my life for I know that the enemy has spotted me, I believe that they are threatened by my decision to follow Him. I've came to realize that the days ahead of me will not be quiet. The Trumpets will sound and the Battlecry will roar - it is War~!
I rise to Your call at daybreak
A pale blue glaze the heavens make
I lift may hands in morning praise
I thank You again for Your amazing Grace
I leave my shelter and into the field
Indeed the seeds were of plenty yield
I take to arms my laden equipment
And with it a frothy instrument
Towards the sun my back would face
My shoulders broil in the fiery blaze
To the still well I moved to be
There You draw water, a drink for me
For hours toil made heaps of grain
Still for me it is none to gain
Yet a sight to joy despite the pain
Because alone it's You I long to remain
As dusk settles to mark the day end
I start to reflect on how it began
In Your bosom may I truely rest
To be close to Father, the sweetest caress
If there be among you who are reading this, please keep me in prayer at this time. I need the upholding of my fellow brothers and sisters so I may keep steadfast to my calling.
