~ Phewh ~!
Its been a whole week full of learning~! And one thing I've learnt very well this week and a half... is to find peace in my God~!
Even when the holidays started, I was already beginning to feel weary. So many things on my mind that I just couldn't put off. Assignments, Tutorials, Exams, Debates and AWN. I was beginning to feel so heavy inside, tired physicaly, mentaly and emotionaly. Didn't know where to run and hide~!
Monday 5th September took the whole day researching for my assignment number one... was busy in and out.. rested a lil ... then worked all the way till late night ..... I think it was 3 am
Tuesday 6th September during the one week holiday, I was rushing to get my assignment done before AWN so I could enjoy the camp (So I thought) I woke up in horror to find myself SICK~! Had fever and my nose was Running all over the place~! ((Did anyone see my nose?)) " Good Ness~~~!!" Thougt I, "how on earth am I to concentrate??"
Thursday 8th September went to the library early in the morning to look for my assignment details... then went for the DEBATES~! It was 2 stressful sessions and so much of researching .... I told them I can't come for Debate practice from Friday till Sunday because I had a Camp... They said they wanna DROP me from the team~! I was so lett down~! Plus Point to DEPRESSION~!
Healing @ AWN
But it all came to an end when I DECIDED not to FEEL the way I was feeling... and the day came for AWN
Friday 9th September had breakfast myself while waiting for ApEK with his Chun CAR ... Drove to Janda Baik while feeling Tired and Lousy ...but I thought to myself... I'll need to be enthusiastic~! No more feeling the way I felt... I left all my thoughts of assignments at home~! I was FREE...~!
Throught the CAMP I've learnt so much~! Some of them were,
- To let go and let God
- To find Refuge in Him
- Killing chicken is NOT easy
- Somewhat small fry Heroism
- Legacy Live (Leaving footprints)
- You are what you Think you are
I enjoyed myself at AWN and I went there without a hint of regret~!
Back on Schedule
Throughout the week there were many important lessons I was learning and God was really speaking to me. To re-enforce what I've learnt in AWN, He cornered me by making the messages SO CLEAR~!
Tuesday 13th Septmeber. I was doing my morning devotion and I read something from Spurgeon .. (Psalms 84:6) ... I was about men who passed though a valley of weeping and made fountains on the way ...
This further made it clear to me to Leave a Legacy ... Spurgeon commented that travellers in the wilderness naturaly feel safer when they are following a path were there were still foot prints left on the ground~! I felt the NEED to shine the light to my Juniors~! "Oh .. precious ye of generations to be"
That night itself I learnt lesson2 ... at Bible study ... to have the Peace of Christ ... that pretty much confirms what I MUST learn~! To just rely on God and amidst times of distress, GO TO HIM ... he is ever LOVING~!
The later days I found myself investing into the lives of my juniors ...
Wednesday I went for a Jog with Adelene and Adele ... and just to free ourselves and go for a good workout was delightful.
Thursday I was asked to sing for our college Tanglung fest and I got to know some of the Junior Guys from my block and I started speaking to them in Mandarin... (You all know how weak my Mandarin is)and this could be a good start for me to touch their lives. I even met a girl from my college who was also from Victoria Ins.
Friday after BE we were out with Kenneth and we just shared our stories back in Victoria Ins .. and I thought to myself... hey.. I'd better start impacting my VI juniors~! (Alicia for example)
After BE, one of my juniors came up to my room and shared all his troubles he had for the past 2 weeks, it was good just to hear him out and just re-enforce God's control over his life again... and that he need not fear what's ahead... even though they look so grim.
That night It was nice to meet Anna again and Senorita at the BMCG ... it encourages me to see them come
That's about all I want to share for today .. I need to get some sleep now... I've forgone 2 hours of sleep just to be online to write my REFLECTIONS on the 2 weeks that has passed...
** I've really been DROPPED from the NHSD competition because of lack of commitment ... it doesn't really matter anyway now..... I've thought about it... I've been in the DEBATES and I felt very Self Serving ... Now I see the need to SERVE OTHERS ... ( I got the news while I was writting this ... saddened in a way ... but... )
