Kids

When I say Kids, I don't mean young goats. Rather the implications of young humans taking on the character of little goats~! (So bad a caretaker)
Its all about the way you talk to them sometimes. Gotta be firm ut not too pushy, I'm trying to strike a balance here now..

Yes, I'm stuck with 3 kids for 3 days cuz my parents went to Bangkok with my neighbours on a weekend holiday. So its my turn to be the "babysitter" for the few days (which I gladly agreed at first, I think they well deserve this break).

I was back in time before they got home from school, so 1 point for me! (YaY!)

Took them out to McDonalds for lunch (their request .. so thought I'd make a good impression)

Let them watch TV and play a little bit while I did my work in the evening.

Had to rush out to buy groceries cuz I found out the cupboards were empty (I promised them pasta tonight)

Made "nice" pasta for them, so another point for me ( though they didn't finish em all up)

Pushed them so hard to get them to be ready for tuition. (They were PLANNING to be late!!!)

Got them just in time for tuition, so another point for me (Yippie! Getting good at this)

Had some personal time while they were away.. and watched a super clear DVD of Oliver Twist (Good Show, I liked the emotions and the psychology of it)

Picked them up from tuition perfect timing (though it disrupted my show... half a point maybe?)

Tried to push them to wash up and go to bed, this was tough. Had to really know how to talk to them properly.

Went out with my friends while they were watching TV about 11pm (Bad babysitter, lepaking -- minus 1 point)

Came back aout 12.30 to find them still glued to the Dumb-Black-Box (TV) Bad Bad babysitter -- minus the half point!!

Finally they're asleep (about 12.45am)

Well lots to do again tomorrow, gonna have to feed them, wash clothes, send them to tuitions, bring them out for some fun, and clean up after them...
Busy busy day.. but not with my own work.. haha

I think I'm just not ready yet for parenting.
(I'm amazed how MeL* keeps that balance)

Silent as it is

The fall of a petal,
A chilling cold breeze,
So swift yet gentle,
Silent as it is

The sun’s bright awakening,
Time and again from the east,
The glow of a tranquil evening,
Silent as it is.

Whisper, whisper,
In the thick pale mist,
No one hears her,
Silent as it is.

Broken, shaken,
Her silence stolen,
Unnoticeably abrupt,
Discreetly interrupt,
The earth starts shifting,
The tides start rolling,
The sea turns rough,
Shorelines engulfed,
Mayhem, Destruction,
Misery, Devastation.

Be Quiet, Be Still,
Once again all at peace,
May they then gradually heal,
Silent as it is.

A poem I've written over a year ago, just wanted it to be in my blog again in reflection of the Tsunami 2004

Conversations in my head

Circumstances ground begins tough to swallow,
For what more ahead even harder to follow,
I fear what lies within is really hollow,
And not knowing what will become of tomorrow.
Where lie thee in my need?
Why do you leave me bleed?
Fear birthed amidts uncertainty,
Drives me to the the brim of sanity.

Can you not Follow??

What drownth ye in all thy sorrow?
Wherst from this spirit ye borrow?
Have thou not seen I have cleansed thy feet?
Do the same, May this act repeat.
Fore bareht ye the task ahead,
Set off the journey, I'll make it straight
Toil ye must in the heat of noon day,
But come the evening, gather to pray.

I have you in certainty!
Come follow me!

Sorry

Sometimes sorry isn't enough
Sorry has to come with repentance
Sorry has to seal that action from repetition
Sorry has to have a heart felt grieve
Sorry is but a step in the remission of guilt

I come O Lord thankful of your Grace,
In guilt O God I've hidden from your face,
Ensure me Lord once again,
My heart, my mind in tarnish taint,
Lift me up so I may not faint,
I'll walk with you, in your Grace remain.


"Its hard to say I'm sorry" - Chicago

Relativism

Compass of extremes,

Ps. Sivin Kit just gave us a short exposition about "Relativism ... and beyond".
I have learnt a great deal about Relativism these 2 weeks and about how people think based upon their precepts and fore-knowledge. I'm beginning to see how many people look at things influenced by their cultural, religious and education backgrounds, and the funny thing is, they dont even know it~!

What mattered to me wasn't about either being a Relativist or an Absolutist. It was about seeing Christ beyond what these 2 terms meant. For me no compass of extremes can envelop the nature of God. A compass of extremes is infact a limited measure.
Can there be infinite absolutes?
Can there be infinite relativism?
Like how Ps Sivin Kit put it, if a man says that he holds ONLY to relativism, does he already not express the absolute element when he says ONLY? Certainly a direct contradiction. So then can we say that being absolute is the way every man should hold on to? The person will also holds himself back and say, "Depending on the circumstances". (a common safety net)
But for us Christians, its BEYOND all that.

Something I couldn't really agree with Ps. Sivin was that, he said that the Church points to the truth. I would say to an extent that this is true, provided the Church as it is today are in some kind of unification of understanding of truth.

-- To be Continued --

12th Feb 2006

Thanks Ps Sivin on that comment and for that HUGE angpow~! (Didn't really get to read the whole thing)

True Truth (if I may use such a term) is Absolute! God is Absolute! Does the church know True Truth? It just bothers me sometimes to see inconsistancy among the churches today. Perhaps this inconsistency has already begun even in the days of the apostles. It was eveident that in Paul's days, the churches in Corinth and Ephasus were having problems of their own adopting the Christian doctrine in their multifaceted cultural background.

Today, Christians also have different stands of alcoholism and gay rights. What does the True Truth really say about it?

Now back to something I can agree with Ps Sivin is that, he mentioned that the Church does not claim to have the Truth, merely a signpost to indicate the location of the truth. While he was sharing this, a picture came to me. I wish to draw it out here, maybe in another post.

This was how it is to be explained.

At the top was the Church, out of the Church was pointing to many-many directions, but there was one arrow that points down somewhere. This arrow was unique, it can't be moved, it cant be changed, it seems almost like the anchorage of the Church. No matter where the Church moves, the arrow points it down.

Gradualy the Church is drawn towards the direction of where the arrow is pointing. As it moves closer, all the other arrows that point outwards seem to just fade away .. or combines itself with the arrow pointing downwards, they didnt matter anymore.
One day the Church of Jesus Christ will, by His grace, be brought to the knowledge of True Truth and all that is around that seems to matter so much at this point of time will make no sense when we are there.

Well, as long as a Church fully understands their existance here on earth and puts God as a point of referance, I would call it a reliable sign post.